The tree is up..still no decorations....nothing.....
Pray for hannah, her 2nd counseling appt is tonight.
I keep a mask on all the time now....i don't think anyone knows the pain......how the smile is only a turning up of my lips...nothing deeper
how i hold the tears in so know one really knows....not even the kids...not even those who think they know me
appointments, doctors, counselors, therapists, psychiatrists, ballgames, work, prescriptions, finances, friends, kids, housework, laundry, they all call for me...and i can no longer do it....
I feel myself crumbling,,,,,and i don't think anyone knows how bad.....only the responsiblitlity to my kids keep me alive