Well, some of the hard stuff is done. Thankfully Dawn and my sister in law Shelly were there to help. We have put have everything in boxes. The kids did take a few of the the things that they cherished. I would have to say that Isaac had the hardest time. He just kept hugging and crying....and is now just very quiet.
I had a hard time holding it together. John was a letter writer. He wrote them often to me....in poem form. I found several of them. I found books that we read together when our marriage wasn't where we knew God wanted it to be. I saved those back. I don't know why. I just did. I just feel numb now.
Now, I am not sure I'm ready to get right back in the house....but I fell like I've made a major step. I know God has given me strength this far...and he won't let me go in the middle of it all. He has been so faithful to us.
I stand in awe at the people who know little of John, me or the kids...yet step in to help in any way that they can. I stand amazed at the people who want to just do ANYTHING to help. You are angels send by God. I have no doubt in my mind. I am surouned by his TEAM. I feel priviledged.
I am scared...yes. But, as He has brought us this far....he can take us further.
My mind wonders a lot. I have been trying to keep it centered on God. The scripture that comes to my mind is this (my paraphrase) Saundra, think on those things that are good, pure, true and worthy of HIS PRAISE.....and when you think on these things His Peace will be with you. It is my promise from God to help settle my worries.
I love and thank you all...
My specific prayer requests would be for peace, contentement, peace for my children, and that this will only increase their faith in Christ.