What a day. Happy/Sad? What should I feel. I told my sister-in-law Kay that I wish it (Thanksgiving) would go away. Then I remember my precious children and how life must continue as normal as possible. I just cannot think about Christmas. Traditions that were John's alone. Picking the tree, cutting the bottom off, putting it in the stand....and the lights....that was his job. I don't know if I can do that. I don't know what the kids are thinking....we wil definitely have to talk about this I know.
I hope and pray that tomorrow I may try to go to the house tomorrow. Thanks to Ami Dillard she has helped me to deal with his belongings.....what to do, when, etc....I need all the direction I can get you know.
I didn't realize how helpful this blog would help me. I really do feel like I have released feelings and thoughts to someone and feel better. John used to always tell me that I would relax once I talked everything out with him. Another lesson learned from my beloved husband.
I hope you all have a wonderful Thanksgiving. Be thankful for your family.
I am thankful for my children, my family, John's family, my church family, my dear, dear friends, my school friends.....I can go on and on. God has been so good to bless me with all of you.
I love you.