Who would have dreamed that I would wish that I had to go to work today? Yeah, not me either. I am scared of summer.
John and I were off all summer as well as the kids. So the kids could be off and doing their thing and John and I would do ours. Ride bikes, work on the house, or just sitting and enjoying one anothers company. I am terrified that I will find myself alone....with my thoughts....which will just be horrible.
I have given the summer to the Lord. I should not worry. But...I am a worrier. Pray that my time wiill be taken up with Friends and things that I can find to do.
I have been worrying about this for a while. But on the 25th of May, in my devotional book Jesus Calling, I read this...and reworded it as if it were coming from my own mouth.....
I will turn from my problem to your Presence and my load is immediately lighter. My circumstances do not change, but you carry the burden with me. My compulsion to fis everything gives way to a deep satisfying connection with you. Together, YOU and I can handle whatever this day brings our way.
You know...I know a lot of you may feel this way...you can read it, and re-read it...can believe it....but have a hard time living it. That is where I am right now in my thoughts of summer. I know I am probably worrying for nothing. But, I have to keep returning my focus on His Presence. I have learned that when I take my focus from His Presence...things, or rather I, start to fall apart.
I am going to try and sit down and make out a responsibility list for my kids. Pray that the Lord would help me and guide my thoughts. Pray that the kids are accepting of it. I just cannot do it all.
Pray for us.