I blogged late last night so if you haven't read that yet..you may want to read it first to get caught up on things.
I went to bed with a big tear in my chest....I awoke with a bigger tear in my chest. As I read the Psalm this morning David was crying out to God in anguish....in despair, and yes he even mentioned grief. I could feel, I did feel what David was feeling....crying out, but not being heard. But David, (and I) both know that God was hearing. I just need to see it. I'm not seeing it.
I cry out this morning in anguish, despair and grief. I know He hears. His word says He hears. But I am feeling so alone this morning. I am in deep despair. I can't cry enough.
That is why, even though I said I would only blog in the evening, I am blogging this morning. I need prayer to make it through this day. I am going to try to go to work. It doesn't matter where I am....John is everywhere. I can't get away from his memories...our memories. So it doesn't matter.
Please pray for me.....today....morning, noon, and noon and into the evening. I need Him to Sustain me.