Jan 8, 2010

I did something this morning that I haven't did since the accident. Slept until 9. I woke at 6 to get the kids going, had my devotions and then that mattress on the floor, w/ Molly soundly asleep, looked too inviting. So I crawled in next to her and fell sound to sleep. My brother called and woke me...or I may have slept way too late. Guess I needed the sleep.

Devotions were very clear to me....from God Calling: "Life with Me is not immunity from difficulties, but peace in difficulties. My guidance is often by shut doors. Love bangs as well as opens.

Joy is the result of faithful trusting acceptance of MY WILL, when it seems not joyous.

"our light affliction, which is but for a moment, worketh for us exceeding and eternal weight of glory." Expect rebuffs until this is learned--it is the only way.

This is by no means easy....it is very difficult. I love the one part that says LOVE BANGS as well as OPENS. His love is banging now.....but his love will OPEN also. AND it will be good! Or...JOY is the result of faithful trusting acceptance of MY WILL...when it seems no joyous. Like I said, this is not joyous....but I am learning to trust and accept. This is His Will for my life...at this time.

Yesterday was a better day. Got some laundry done. The dust bunnies swept away and that made me feel like I accomplished something!

Many of you have asked about Hannah's dress. No I can't say that she picked one out. She had pictures of some...but I don't know if she and I will be able to agree on something. Grams, Hannah and myself are going out sometime this weekend....along with Matthew!!!!! She said he could go because mommy and grams need to be there to know how we can take it up,in or whatever adjustments can be made. But Matthew has good taste. Well there ya go!!!!!

Again...God showed he is hearing our prayers....I wasn't quite ready to get Isaac for lunch...guess who volunteered to go pic him up!!!! He did! Took him to grams and I met them there. Then he took him back and picked Rach up! It seemed he wanted to! Gramps and I just looked at each other.

Matthew had a physical Therapy appt yesterday so he went to that then we met back home. It was so nice to have him out here in the living room with me. Chatting and talking. He really likes the History channel so we have been watching, talking, and sharing about that. He truly is becoming a different person by Gods Grace and Mercy.

We all (Matthew also) went to Isaacs scrimmage. The thing is I heard him talking to a friend on the phone....and he was telling him his plans for the evening and he told him that he had Isaacs scrimmage and Hannahs game to go to. I was thrilled that he was actually going to put his family before his friends.

We did go to both the kids activities. Matthew and Isaac actually went first then Jay and I later. I couldn't find Matthew when we got there so I text him and asked where he was. He text back that he was sitting with Hannah. SHE WAS ON THE BENCH!!!!! But when I looked..he was sitting behind her...that is what he meant. I thought that was so sweet.

That is one thing he has done since we have gone to the kids games...he wants to make sure he is sitting right behind them. I think that is so sweet.

No homework last night...so it was an easy night to go to sleep. I slept well last night.

No real plans today. Get the kids for lunch. Leslie Wunder has some of Holly's dresses for me to look at in her office. So, I am going up there around lunch to look and maybe bring home some that Hannah would like. Then at 1:00 Hannah has a game.

I don't know what tonight holds. That may be when we go look for dresses if Hannah doesn't feel comfortable with any of Holly's.

Pat, I am glad you mentioned "normal" in your comment. Marilyn and I were just talking yesterday that actually things will never be "normal" as we know it. That has been something I have really been dealing with. Everything has forever changed. Now, we have to find a new "normal" and I am not sure any of us know how to find that. Time, and God will be the only way we will find that again.

Jadean, I did get your message. So, you do have my number. I just was not around as you could see from above to take time to talk. And quite honestly I am no one to talk on the phone. I am afraid people will get me crying....and sometimes....when I am feeling pretty good...it really scares me. But I will try to call you between my plans today.

Sheila, thanks for sharing and commenting though you don't know me. I miss Kristie on here. I hope she gets her computer up and running soon. Thanks for being a part of my life through prayer. It means a lot to me.

Mindi, I will send you an email. We haven't fixed the wipers yet. It is just too cold to get out. But I will call you probably after this.

SB.....I do want to print out my whole blog, with comments. I don't know how. So, if you are computer savvy, or know someone that is....let me know how to do that!!!!

To my prayer warriors...
I have to be making a will out. There are some decisions that I have to make. My prayer, and I wold like you to make it yours is that God give me wisdom in the decisions I have to make. To make it clear to me.

Pray for our little white truck. Still in shop.

Pray for Matthew, Hannah, Isaac, and Rachel to begin to have a longing to know Jesus more. To have a personal relationship with God. Give them that desire.

Ask God to prepare me for starting school on Monday. I am already struggling with it.

Give me wisdom in taking care of the kids, finances, etc.

That I will be able to eat at our table soon. That God will give me the strength to do that.

Energy...I feel so tired all the time.

My relationship with Isaac and studying time. That I will have God's Patience and understanding and things will go smoothly.

Thanks for all you do....all you say...for YOUR faithfulness.

Also, pray for Matthew that he will have the wisdom to finish this one last paper he has to write for OWU. It is a sociology paper, 4 pages and he is really struggling. Pray for it to just come to him so he can be finally finished with all the requirements they have asked for and he can be released.

I love you all.
Saundra