It was hard for me to blog yesterday...it was the second month of my Love being gone from this earth. But I made it!
Many things contributed to my being able to survive yesterday. My devotions....first thing God told me in Isaiah 11....He watches over his children as a shepherd watches over his sheep. He CARRIES them in his arms CLOSE to his HEART. And he helps those with the YOUNG!"
Wow! It was as if he was talking directly to me. Throughout yesterday I would quote that in my mind. He is watching me....He carries me....CLOSE TO HIS HEART! Where else would anyone else want to be? I felt safe...I felt Him yesterday carrying me.
Then, the school and Salon Envy gave me a gift certificate for a hair overhaul. Guys don't get it....girls do. It just makes you feel better. And I did as I left. It was good to do something that I enjoy doing...I like having my hair changed here and there.
Hannah played an awesome game last night. She was right down there getting beat up as usual. But she was awesome. I was so proud of her.
Homework was a little tedious. Rach had a bunch to do. We finished around 10:00....way past my bedtime! Let alone hers!
Then there was Isaac. Somehow we have got to come to some kind of terms with working together. We just clash every time....and I mean every time we study together. My prayer this morning was that God would give me patience and understanding to know what he needs me to do during those times. And that he would have a calm spirit when we study.
I told you wrong reg. Matthew and his qualifying. Da. I told you I didn't know much about qualifying. Yes, he did do well on Monday for qualifying. I guess you could say that he is one step closer to qualifying. But they do not do it day after day...there will just be another day when he will play to qualify. He doesn't know when that will be right now. But, just keep praying for his game. That everyday he will learn something new that will improve his game. Ive asked God to be his hands, his mind, his eyes.
We got the little white truck back! Thanks to Eric Lang and friends. I thank you so much! It makes things so much easier when we have 5 people that have to be at 6 different places!!! I usually let Matthew drive the explorer out to Rose Creek where SNU practices. It is quite a ways and I just feel better when he is in the bigger vehicle...and the new one. He is happy. He calls it his baby. I don't say anything because he knows...its my baby!!!!!
Tonight at 6 I a meeting with a few ladies who themselves have found themselves in my place. Help me to ask the right questions to help me through this. And ask the Lord to speak through them. And above all....pray for God to be there among us.
My prayer is for the safety of all my children. Physically, mentally and emotionally. Since none of them are really talking....keeping things inside I pray for their emotional needs.
Pray that EACH of them have a desire to REALLY know God. To have a personal relationship with him. To desire to know him more and more each day.
That God search my heart for anything that will keep me from having a pure heart and a closer walk with him.
Be with the kids as school. Give them wisdom for any work that they have in front of them. I believe in my heart that He is doing that. They seem to all be doing well. Isaac is starting to falter. He started off with a bang....but he's losing his gusto. We are starting to struggle again.
Pray for him. I know he misses his dad. I think he actually enjoyed their time together studying. Just him and dad. Pray for my little guy.
Pray that God continue to meet our needs. He has been good to us. Very good. But...and I say this with all honesty....I live in fear of not being able to meet my children's needs. Literally live in fear. Pray that God calm my heart...and remind me that He is ALL we need. Men...I now know the stress you are under. Bless your hearts. I am sorry.
Pray for Matthew as he travels to and from Rose Creek Golf Course for practice. I worry...as any mother would.....pray for his protection...God's protection, his hedge of Angels around him. Protection not only for his own carelessness, but from the other people driving around him.
Thank you for each comment. I was thrilled to see some new names on here. It is always fun to see that I have more prayers coming my way. Thank you for each of your prayers. I may not know you personally...but please know...that I love each of you.